Let me just say that after being on the pill for so long I think that your body forgets how to handle it's own hormones......I am not enjoying this change and not loving the feeling that I have no control. No control over moods, no control over eating and NO control over getting pregnant. Being a Type A, scheduled individual, this is a change that is taking a toll.
I am breaking out like a 16 year old again, I have cravings for sugar even worse than before, my weight has increased more than I would like to admit (I have had a 3% body fat increase in less than 8 weeks!!!!! and I still did a marathon in that time!!!!!). I get it, I am not training to the level that I was for Ironman and my food intake has not changed either, infact the sugar intake has likely gone up, so really it is my own doing. My percentage is still relatively low (17%) and people have been saying to me "your healthy now", I hate that. I hate the term "healthy", to me that means "heavier" or "plump". I know that this is not what I am, but that is how it makes me feel when I hear those terms.
I feel frustrated with not knowing when "things" are going to connect properly so I can plan the next event in life and start shopping for the cute little things....I don't know if I should continue to train, how hard to train, will it affect getting pregnant????, should I sign up for any races and make the decision later if I am able to race or not???
Ohhhhh the joys of change......writing on this blog sure does get personal......
I feel I may be sharing too much, but I am sure I am not the only person who has felt this way....am I???
Okay, let's try to focus a little on the positive's:
My dear husband has been very tolerant of my moods and the changes that have been taking place. I am very lucky for all of his support.
I have a fantastic clientelle at work and great athletes that I am coaching.
I am loving our new house!
As always, I have some very supportive friends that have helped through this journey...and many others.
Sometimes it is hard to see the positives in life when we get carried away in the negatives. I really am very lucky and know that my time will come for having a little one. I do always feel that things happen for a reason, and life hands you new challenges when you are ready to take them on......good and bad.
So, here is to making an attempt at taking control....of the hormones and eating at least:)
Just a friendly reminder...
14 years ago
Sara,
ReplyDeleteI was right there with you at IMAZ 09. I'm 2 weeks out from my 50k/marathon weekend, and only 5 weeks out from my 50 miler.
Hey Ed,
ReplyDeleteGood to hear from you. I sent you a card to thank you for helping me get through the run. No too sure if I sen tit to the right address. You can reach me at sarah@teamtrilife.com.
Hope your runs go well!!
Hi Sara! I don't know if I'm the best source of info when it comes to how much exercising you can do when you're trying to get pregnant... I'm apparently as fertile as they come and did not plan on becoming pregnant (either time) so I was training a ton each time. I ran 51 miles the week that my second one was implanting (of course then I miscarried- though I do not think the running was the reason). Anyway, for me, doing what I'm used to was not a problem in conceiving or early pregnancy. Read 'Exercising Through Your Pregnancy' by Dr. James Clapp. He talks about guidelines when you're trying to conceive and then all through pregnancy. He's not very conservative and basically says do whatever feels good and whatever your body is already used to. So daily runs and lifting weights and all that is fine. What would not be fine would be to sit on your ass for weeks on end and then go decide to hike the Grand Canyon. That would shock your body too much.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, good luck with sorting out those HORROR-mones. Ugh.
Hi Sara! Me again... cool that you and your mom are coming to Hawaii! I checked the race calendar though and no running races those weekends. There are Bike time trials though both weekends, though I assume you will not be bringing your bike. ;)
ReplyDeleteAs far as places to go, email me at michelle.simmons08@yahoo.com and I'll give you any details you want. :))) The Hilton is a little universe all on it's own there in Waikiki... it's big and nice and within walking distance of just about all of Waikiki. If you're getting a car though you'll for sure want to drive around and hit the north shore and lanikai/kailua- lanikai is the beach I keep posting pictures/videos of on my blog. It's where I take Moana a lot! Voted #1 beach in the world at one point. :)